you stupid slut

you stupid slut is a hybrid memoir that started as an ode to my carefree early 20s and slowly turned into a reckoning with who the fuck I thought I was. Diving deep into a pool of memories from (loosely) 2014-2019 that I had (almost entirely) tried to forget about, I grapple with the role that my own reckless behavior played in the immense amount of harm this period of my life caused me. It's about reckoning with a loss of faith in love and humanity, but also so much about the ways I so desperately needed to prove I was lovable—as well as the gender confusion created by indulging in a pattern of self-destructive hypersexuality and substance abuse, both of which were born as coping mechanisms for unresolved emotional trauma. you stupid slut functions as an unrated version of my previous work in eventually i will learn to stop saying sorry, recollecting my destructively performative femininity through poetry, prose, form experiments, scraps of paper I probably shouldn’t have saved, and forgotten disposable camera snapshots.

This brutally honest hybrid memoir was original published in July 2022 and republished in July 2026. You can now order it in print through most major online retailers: Bookshop.org / Amazon / B&N.